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Something I think I have yet to tell people here on DA (which I probably should have mentioned) is that I have a bit of a seasonal personality disorder. It's nothing huge, I just have two completely different personalities in the summer and winter, both of which have their own separate perks and downsides. It's taken me a few years of self observation to see what exactly those two personalities are like, and now I've finally been able to analyze them.
In the winter, I can be very depressed, yet calm. I'll lock up my true self and my true feelings, and focus more on what other people want to see in me. This has lead to many things, good, bad and neutral, including:
-Making friends in the school drama club
-This painting which I unloaded all my winter feelings onto
-Coming up with the idea for The Mechanic's Assistant, my character Vincent Cross, etc.
-Many arguments with friends & pushing closer friends away
In the winter, I can be quite reclusive, and some people may remember me using the words "Icy Cocoon," which is what I like to look at winter as. The reason why this happens is because I'm used to having terrible things happen in the winter. Very bad, traumatizing things have tended to occur in the middle of winter for me, and I don't know if the season itself is responsible for that or if it's just been a coincidence all these years, but whatever it is, it's affected the way my personality works around that time. I'm guessing that I've gotten used to these things happening, so as a defensive result, my emotions shut down to prevent themselves from being damaged. That's not always a bad thing, though. With all of my emotions collecting deep inside me with no other outlet, it makes for some great pieces of artwork and writing, as well as amazing dreams and a feeling of being at peace with the snow.
There's actually a song that perfectly describes the way I feel in the winter, Louder than Thunder by The Devil Wears Prada. I used it in the video below.
In the summer, I'm much more energetic, fun-loving, confident and expressive. You'll see me dancing around and singing like a complete dork (Ugh, don't even ASK about my incident with the song Shiver Shiver) and basically just being happy. I'm warm and fiery, and I love getting out there and having fun with close friends who make me feel comfortable. However, not everything that comes from my summer self is good. I'll end up being so open sometimes that I'll embarrass myself for years to come. I can also be extremely competitive and a troll toward people I don't like, and I'll also be much more honest to them, if you know what I mean. I can also be very expressive with my anger, rather than hiding it away like I do in the winter.
Results of my summer self are things like:
-Singing lead on the song Land of Confusion in my summer band
-Summer adventures with my friend Tessa
-THIS 6-PART COMIC
-Lots of gore
In the summer, I'm much more open, expressive and, for lack of a better word, hardcore. I tend to throw caution to the wind, stop caring about other people's thoughts on me, and just let out my true self all at once. However, I can tend to be a little to reckless with it, and end up hurting myself or ironically being untrue to myself in the process. The summer, though, is the time where I tend to have the most self-confidence with the person I am deep down.
I honestly can't choose which side I like better, and to be honest, neither of them alone fully make up who I am as a person. So, after taking a step back and looking at who I am over a long period of time, rather than right at this moment, I've found that my personality has been fluctuating according to the season. In the summer, I have an aura of fire: Warm and welcoming, yet able to burn. In the winter, I have an aura of ice: Silent and cold, yet beautiful. You've probably seen a lot of changes to Alba's character, from funny and strong-hearted to quiet and timid. In reality, Alba has two sides to her: Ice Alba and Fire Alba, each with their own perks and downsides.
Right now, Fire Alba's eyes are open, because she's the one that's currently active. When winter comes around, and Ice Alba starts to wake up, I'm going to open her eyes.
Watch the drawing process here!
www.youtube.com/watch?v=J0PgSV…
I added some music to add to the effect and convey my two personalities during those two times of the year.
SAI, about 4 hours
Character, Alba DeNoctua, Belongs to me
In the winter, I can be very depressed, yet calm. I'll lock up my true self and my true feelings, and focus more on what other people want to see in me. This has lead to many things, good, bad and neutral, including:
-Making friends in the school drama club
-This painting which I unloaded all my winter feelings onto
-Coming up with the idea for The Mechanic's Assistant, my character Vincent Cross, etc.
-Many arguments with friends & pushing closer friends away
In the winter, I can be quite reclusive, and some people may remember me using the words "Icy Cocoon," which is what I like to look at winter as. The reason why this happens is because I'm used to having terrible things happen in the winter. Very bad, traumatizing things have tended to occur in the middle of winter for me, and I don't know if the season itself is responsible for that or if it's just been a coincidence all these years, but whatever it is, it's affected the way my personality works around that time. I'm guessing that I've gotten used to these things happening, so as a defensive result, my emotions shut down to prevent themselves from being damaged. That's not always a bad thing, though. With all of my emotions collecting deep inside me with no other outlet, it makes for some great pieces of artwork and writing, as well as amazing dreams and a feeling of being at peace with the snow.
There's actually a song that perfectly describes the way I feel in the winter, Louder than Thunder by The Devil Wears Prada. I used it in the video below.
In the summer, I'm much more energetic, fun-loving, confident and expressive. You'll see me dancing around and singing like a complete dork (Ugh, don't even ASK about my incident with the song Shiver Shiver) and basically just being happy. I'm warm and fiery, and I love getting out there and having fun with close friends who make me feel comfortable. However, not everything that comes from my summer self is good. I'll end up being so open sometimes that I'll embarrass myself for years to come. I can also be extremely competitive and a troll toward people I don't like, and I'll also be much more honest to them, if you know what I mean. I can also be very expressive with my anger, rather than hiding it away like I do in the winter.
Results of my summer self are things like:
-Singing lead on the song Land of Confusion in my summer band
-Summer adventures with my friend Tessa
-THIS 6-PART COMIC
-Lots of gore
In the summer, I'm much more open, expressive and, for lack of a better word, hardcore. I tend to throw caution to the wind, stop caring about other people's thoughts on me, and just let out my true self all at once. However, I can tend to be a little to reckless with it, and end up hurting myself or ironically being untrue to myself in the process. The summer, though, is the time where I tend to have the most self-confidence with the person I am deep down.
I honestly can't choose which side I like better, and to be honest, neither of them alone fully make up who I am as a person. So, after taking a step back and looking at who I am over a long period of time, rather than right at this moment, I've found that my personality has been fluctuating according to the season. In the summer, I have an aura of fire: Warm and welcoming, yet able to burn. In the winter, I have an aura of ice: Silent and cold, yet beautiful. You've probably seen a lot of changes to Alba's character, from funny and strong-hearted to quiet and timid. In reality, Alba has two sides to her: Ice Alba and Fire Alba, each with their own perks and downsides.
Right now, Fire Alba's eyes are open, because she's the one that's currently active. When winter comes around, and Ice Alba starts to wake up, I'm going to open her eyes.
Watch the drawing process here!
www.youtube.com/watch?v=J0PgSV…
I added some music to add to the effect and convey my two personalities during those two times of the year.
SAI, about 4 hours
Character, Alba DeNoctua, Belongs to me
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The cocky grin on Fire Alba is rather adorable. The snolwflakes are also rather pretty.
I never imagined that your process involved so much copy and pasting aha. But mirror images rightfully should be identical in some aspects. Heh, Alba is a chiral molecule. The left form tends towards endothermic reactions and the right form exothermic. Heh.
And I like the new watermark/signature. Capital delta makes a fine looking "A".
As for the story involved, I couldn't say if there would be a "better" personality. Both have their unique characteristics and sound like they are both true to who you are. The thing about people is that they can always have two contrasting characteristics that can exist simultaneously. Mayhaps certain characteristics come to the fore at certain but both sides exist together harmoniously. I shall call you the Alba of Steam. You know, fire and ice. Heh.
Oh, and for some reason I always preferred the In Flames version of Land of Confusion. Maybe because that's the one I heard first, I don't know.
I never imagined that your process involved so much copy and pasting aha. But mirror images rightfully should be identical in some aspects. Heh, Alba is a chiral molecule. The left form tends towards endothermic reactions and the right form exothermic. Heh.
And I like the new watermark/signature. Capital delta makes a fine looking "A".
As for the story involved, I couldn't say if there would be a "better" personality. Both have their unique characteristics and sound like they are both true to who you are. The thing about people is that they can always have two contrasting characteristics that can exist simultaneously. Mayhaps certain characteristics come to the fore at certain but both sides exist together harmoniously. I shall call you the Alba of Steam. You know, fire and ice. Heh.
Oh, and for some reason I always preferred the In Flames version of Land of Confusion. Maybe because that's the one I heard first, I don't know.